his first car cart ride during one of our trips to home depot.
When I quit my job in February to stay home with Corbin full time, the todo list I created for myself was long and heavy.
I spent all down time during the spring and summer season consumed with crafts.
I find projects, sewing, writing, cooking- anything creative and hands on- to be therapeutic.
But when walking through anxiety, I also find a way to take it to the extreme- to almost squeeze the joy out of it with the pressure to get it all done. Left to my own devices, I will take on multiple projects– with a dead line, as in Corbin’s 1st birthday.
Luckily, this wasn’t one of those projects.
This one didn’t come with a set of plans or steps, it was one where I had a vision when I started but then it became something entirely different when I finished. I knew going in that I wanted to try to salvage the canvas and that I wanted to try my hand at photo transferring. My sister had done a few photo transferring projects onto wood that looked awesome.
The garland strip came into play when I realized that my large black and white Xerox copy wasn’t going to cover the entire canvas – not even close.
I let go of expectations during this craft. If it didn’t turn out, fine. If no one else “got it”, that’s ok too.
I spent a few nap times with the music cranked up and just let my hands create.
Learning to let go of expectations of ourselves is hard. I have had to shed a lot of the uncomfortable feelings that come with walking away from a career and choosing to live with a little less in order to be able to soak up every bit of my son.
I remind myself in these moments of doubt, they are only little once and for such a short period of time.. don’t waste it.
